我又做了一个背叛男朋友的梦。与过去不同的是，它非常真实，我记得很清楚。醒了这么久还是觉得很痛苦。
让我们谈谈梦。他通过我认识了我的研究生。从一开始，我就发现了女孩的不对劲，有意无意地在他身上蹭来蹭去。果然，他经不起诱惑，上钩了。
我看了他们的聊天记录，跟廖嫂的没什么区别。很多成年人一见面话题就开始暧昧，在我面前开始眼神交流。我看到他刚开始和我在一起的时候害羞局促，而那个女孩很迷人，请他帮忙。她看起来像我是绿茶，我怕谁。我站在一旁，感觉自己是个局外人，脑子嗡嗡作响，不知所措。
在回家的路上，他拒绝开车送我回学校。我彻底爆发了。我在路上歇斯底里，大喊大叫，无视别人的目光。我打了他很多次。我说他没人性。他怎么能这样对我？他坚持告诉我他真的喜欢别人，想和别人在一起。我用指甲划破了他的脸，还做了一个很长的口子。然后我回去，找到那个女孩，让她觉得自尊，打了她几巴掌。他一直想保护她。看到他对她如此紧张，真令人兴奋。他想对那个女孩说些什么。女孩甩开他的手离开了。我看见他痛苦地蹲着抱着头。真是可笑又解恨。他失去了一个爱他很久的人，也失去了一个让他感到遗憾的人。不知道后续如何，因为醒来的时候心口疼。
如果真有这种事，我连理论都不会。走吧。我太好了，不想结婚。只是他配不上我。
回到现实，他还在睡觉。等他醒来，我还是会把梦告诉他，或者抱怨，告诉他我受了委屈。
很多时候，梦都是废话，但有时候也是人生状态的投射。上个月很忙，压力很大，发生了很多事情。所以，这个梦是一件相当蓄谋已久的事情，只是体面的分离，与出轨无关。
也是通过这个梦，我意识到自己很多地方做得不够好，我们深爱着对方，这已经是这个快餐爱情时代最珍贵的东西了。他是一个很耿直的男生，也很优秀，至少简单，脾气易燃易爆，气质迷人。我真的没什么好挑剔的，我对我很好，照顾好我的学习和生活。
和我在一起后，他做了很多改变，但我还在比较，总觉得他进步了很多。但是，他现在的状态还不如一些刚谈恋爱的男生。他从一开始就是一个温暖的人，从一开始他就会是一个能够控制自己情绪的成熟男人。
我没有理会，他就是他，我和他在一起应该是他最真实的样子，因为我应该是他最信任的人和毫无保留的人，在他不好的地方我应该更有耐心。我和他一起长大，而不是一直责怪他，为什么我没有长大？
正是在这段时间，我为我们的感情留下了退路。这个梦让我清醒了很多。我也以为可以全身而退，因为我本来就是一个洒脱的人，所以只做了一个梦。我在梦里像个疯子。我还是放不下。一起经历了那么多美好的事情，一起为对方做了那么多的事情，有过那么多的欢乐和回忆。
决定勇敢一点，过得不好，好好解决问题。没有原则的问题还是会好好在一起的。
啊哈哈哈哈哈在梦里他的出轨对象会是以前的我吗？不，我没那么瘦，也没那么绿茶，而且我很怪异，不会和有男朋友的人勾搭，也不会把眼睛给好。我是一个诚实的男孩。
一大早，录了一波，心情平静下来。
睡一会儿。
早上好，起床的人们。
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又做了男朋友出轨的梦，和过去不一样，特别真实，也记得特别清楚，醒来这么久感觉心还是很痛。
谈起梦想，他通过我认识了我的研究生同学。刚开始的时候，我发现这个女孩有点不对劲。我有意无意地碰了他一下。
我看了他们的聊天记录，和撩骚没什么区别，很多成年人的话题，见面也开始暧昧，在我面前开始调戏，也有肢体接触，我先看到了他和我在一起的羞涩、尴尬的样子，女孩用妩媚让他帮忙，一副绿茶的样子，我怕我喜欢的是谁，我站在旁边，感觉自己像个外人，脑子嗡嗡作响，不知所措，我还是想在人前给他挽回一点好感。
>On the way home, he refused to drive me back to school, I completely broke out, hysterical in the street, Shouting, ignoring the eyes of others, I slapped him many times, I called him inhuman, how could he do this to me, he insisted that he really liked someone else, and should be with someone else. I scratched his face with his nails, a long line of cut, and then I came back, found a girl, let her self-respect, also played for slap, he always wanted to protect her, to see him for the way she's nervous is exciting, what want to and the girl said, girl off his hand away, I see the way he squatted down holding the head pain, goofy, and lost a loved his people for a long time, And I lost someone who made him feel fresh, so I decided to destroy him, and I circulated their chat logs to everyone we knew. Don't know the follow-up, because the heart pain woke up.
If there is such a thing, I will not theory, just walk away, I am so good, not worry about marrying, is he does not deserve my good.
Back to reality. Now he's still sleeping and when he wakes up I'm still gonna tell him about the dream, or I'm gonna complain, or I'm gonna tell him that I was wronged.
Most of the time, dreams are gratuitous, but sometimes it is also the projection of the state of life, last month was busy, pressure is not small, also happened a lot of things, so this dream is rather premeditated for a long time, just a decent separation, not cheating.
We love each other deeply, which is the most precious thing in this era of fast food love. He is a very straight boy, and he is also very good. At least, he is simple, and his temper is flammable and explosive. Other I really have nothing to be picky, very good to me, my study life also take good care of.
With me, he made a lot of changes, and I still compare, always feel that he is a lot of progress, but he is not as good as some boys just fall in love with the state, at the beginning is a warm man, at the beginning will do a will control their emotions of mature man.
I ignored that he is him, he and I should be his most real appearance, because I should be the person he trusts most, without reservation, his bad place I should be more patient, I am with him to grow up, rather than always blame him, why not grow up.
Is I in this period of time to our feelings left a retreat, the dream is let me awake a lot, I also think, I can get out, because I was a free and easy person, just a dream, I in the dream like a madman. Still can not put down, experienced so much good together, together for each other to do so many things, there are so many happy, memories.
Or decide to be brave, have a bad time, solve the problem, no problem of principle or good together.
I'm not that thin, and I don't have that green tea. I wouldn't hook up with anyone who has a boyfriend. I wouldn't give you a good look.
Early in the morning, record a wave, the mood is also calm.
Take a nap.
Good morning, people who get up.
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